I don’t enjoy this situation at all.  I don’t enjoy the bad note in which you left me on thursday. I dont enjoy the thoughts that have been frantically spinning in my head. I don’t enjoy the events that will be happening on monday evening.  I’m going to sleep all this weekend to let the thoughts go.  I dont want us drifting away because of something like this.  I dont like being angry with you.  No one understands where I’m coming from, or cares for that matter.  It’s unhealthy how upset I get when you’re not here.  And now with this whole thing happening its even worse.  I just want to see you, and not have you out there doing these bad, unsafe things with people who don’t think about their actions.  I want you to keep promises, but I want you to have fun.

I dont want to control you.  I dont want to lose you.  I dont want to be that bitch of a girlfriend, like most of the others turned out to be.  I want everything to be okay, happy, and perfect like it was a few days ago.  

I have given myself to you, I plan to be yours, for a very long time.  Im overreacting, but its just because I’ve been over thinking everything and getting into my own head.  

I just wish those things weren’t a part of your life, and I just wish you were here, when I need you most.